Taking a break…
“I am one who functions best when controlling chaos.“
The things my husband puts up with. Yes, I am obsessed with constantly redesigning around the house. I have been like that since I was able to move furniture around on my own (picture a six-year-old wee Aja moving her canopy bed and desk around and creating a whole new bedroom atmosphere to enjoy – yep that’s where it started). Obviously, its to make sure spaces are used to their full potential while flexing the ol’ designer muscle.
Once again, I recently moved things around in the office because I’m preparing for a big resting period, (coming soon to this Aja near you!). I finally found a new dream to work on as I’ve always wanted to have my own studio space to get back into oil painting. Healing a neck injury just won’t allow me to work more to speed up the process and build it. So the garage hosting a painting space it is, for now.
I was recently sideswiped with a new mission to remove my left breast as it’s under attack from a web of sneaky cancer cells. Instead of focusing on just one, I wanted to make sure both of them go. That way I can kick cancers ass for trying to sneak up on me (and finally get the reduction I’ve wanted for years). Unfortunately, the surgeon feels at this stage that one at a time will be best for my recovery and less chance of infection or troubles with the effected breast. Details to be confirmed on that over the next week once I’ve had my next two scheduled MRIs.
As a result of the waiting game, I decided to start this blog so I could focus on sharing things that inspire me. That sort of focus is just what a busy creative person needs when the mind is healthy but the body needs time to catch up. It is unnatural for me to completely stop. There is always something to experience, something to be thankful for, something to learn and something to share, something to create!
My amazing husband has been supporting me so much and the fundraiser he made has allowed me to feel I can rest the first month or so since I will not be able to work or bring in income. I am approaching something that can take six months or more all depending on what happens along the way.
I am looking forward to the day I can wear a dress again without it feeling like a moo-moo because of the size of my breasts. I am looking forward to finally stopping, because now I have to and this time it’s something people can see and take seriously. Having a head/neck injury and being a self employed artist is one of the hardest battles I’ve ever fought, so now maybe people will see just how strong I’ve been and how I’ve been present this whole time never ever giving up on myself.
It took a pandemic for me to finally learn just how important it is to give our minds and bodies space to sync and collect ourselves fully. Stopping, taking a time out, breaking routines… this allows us the time to clear the generic cycle of the daily grind and shift our reality so we can have space to continue to evolve and grow. Just like cleaning a room and noticing what is needed and what is just taking up space.
On that note, let it be said that I am so very thankful to everyone that has already shown so much support, sent love and just been there for my husband. I am so honoured to have so much love in my life. 💖
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